How does Jesus respond to doubting disciples? I have so many questions that I’m afraid God doesn’t want me in his family.
All honest Christians will admit that we have our own doubts too. Some of our doubts are God focused. Some of them are centered on our lives. Sometimes we have questions about how God could use someone like us to help someone else. Perhaps that’s where your struggle is focused. Even Jesus’ chosen disciples had doubts — even after he rose from the dead.
Meanwhile, the eleven disciples were on their way to Galilee, headed for the mountain Jesus had set for their reunion. The moment they saw him they worshiped him. Some, though, held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.
Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: “God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I’ll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:16-20, The Message)
These eleven were Jesus’ chosen followers, his closest friends and family. They were there when the mob arrested Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. They watched as Jesus was crucified – John at the foot of the cross and the others at a distance. They had seen the empty tomb and knew Jesus was raised to life again. They had lived with him for over a month now. But, “Some held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.”
Jesus could have been discouraged. Jesus could have given up and written off his life, sacrifice and victory as a total waste. He could have told the doubters to go home and get their act together.
Instead, “Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge.” He gave his work to all of his disciples – the faithful and the doubtful. The only qualification he required is that they show up at the appointed time and place. Jesus did the rest.
I believe Jesus will treat you the same way. You simply need to show up where Jesus says he will work and leave the rest up to him.
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